Fields

“I just wanna be free,

Free of every single care

In a field of golden and red

And every burden that weighs on me

Will fall away like a soft rain

And fall into a stream

In fields of golden and green”

-Raye

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It seems as though the rat race never ends. Constantly on the hamster wheel of life. I find myself desiring to live a simpler life. Less physical stuff, fewer demands, a quiet plot of land on a back road in the country with only one or two neighbors and plenty of grass to frolic in.

When Raye says “I just wanna be free,” I feel that’s a simple request, don’t you? 

Unfortunately…wait unfortunately what? 

I was going to say that unfortunately, life doesn’t work that way. You will never be free of every single care. But I think I need to stop that mindset.

I think in life we have to “choose our hard” and pick the road less traveled but most fulfilling. That way, the stresses that come will feel….

Hmmm why do I keep assuming there will be stress? Why can’t everything just go smoothly???

Maybe freedom is much harder to achieve than I thought…well for me at least. So many preconceived notions on the difficulty of reaching a certain lifestyle. Quotes like “if it’s worth it, it won’t be easy.”

So, now I am saying to myself: “you mean to tell me that the universe can’t pull a few strings to give you everything you want without you lifting a finger?”

And now, here I go pulling scripture from the bible… let me find it 

Proverbs 10:22 - The blessing from the LORD makes a person rich, and he adds no sorrow to it.

Define “rich” and “sorrow” however you will. I’m honestly just trying to change my mindset real quick.

So, yea, I want every burden that weighs on me, to fall away like a soft rain and fall into a stream.

Then I can be free to write, travel, and play without guilt. 

I want to choose… 

I want a true choice.

Not the illusion of choice where if you choose your highest most abundant life, you face the threat of getting kicked out of your home because the bills arent paid, or you lose your kids because …. Well let’s not even go there.

I see I have a problem with “yucking my own yum” a.k.a bringing myself back to reality…or am I just allowing fearful thoughts and entertaining negative outcomes?

I complained about the rat-race, but at least I know what to expect out there in this world. 

The world I actually want to create has more unknowns than I am ready to face.

But is there ever a good time to choose freedom? To say “eff the consequences ...this is what I want???”

Well, clearly, I am not in the position right now to tell you how to live.

All I can do is let you know that I feel the same way as you.

Hopefully, when we are ready, there will still be fields to play in. 

Until then, give the song “Fields” by Raye a listen

And I’ll see ya later. :)